Well, I got a call from my Hematologist’s office that my insurance company denied my CT scan that was scheduled for next week. I’m sitting here trying not to have a pity party because that will do me no good. My mind is constantly just going and going and occasionally wondering if I’m ever going to get some sort of treatment. 12 years is a long damn time to be dealing with these symptoms and finally when I have a doctor listen to me, my insurance company denies me?! Wow. This is what it’s means to be an American. Pay out the ass for insurance, and get nothing in return from them. You don’t realize this until you have to see a specialist by the way, which clearly I haven’t done until now.
OK. Change of attitude. What’s next. I have another appointment with the Hematologist next week and see what the results of my labs were, and what’s the plan from here on out. The nurse said he may schedule an MRI. But really, would the insurance company approve an MRI but not a CT scan?? I have no idea. I’m trying my best to keep hope alive. We’ll see what happens Tuesday. But honestly with a $10,000 deductible for my family, it’s not like I should be in a big damn hurry to start wracking up the medical bills.
Wait. I said CHANGE OF ATTITUDE. OK, clearly I need to go meditate because my anger is getting the better of me and it does me no good for that to happen. I can’t do anything about it until Tuesday anyway until I see the doctor. So until then, I just wait.