What a crazy, but beautiful world we live in. I had to get my girls out of the house today, so we took a drive out on the highway to find the bluebonnets. Here in Texas, this is the time of year when bluebonnets are in bloom. They’re our state flower and many Texans flock to where they are so that they can take pictures with them. Today was a good day to do that.
Right now, we are all out of school. I’m a teacher, so I’m lucky that I don’t have to worry about child care right now. I have been using this week as a way to reconnect with myself, and my daughters. This time is a blessing for me. It’s forced me to slow down and regroup. I’ve been practicing Reiki every day, sending reiki energy out into the world as much as I can, and also calming my own anxiety, and that of my husband, and daughters.
Last night, I had a horrible night sleep. I’ve been very calm through all of this for the most part. But last night I felt like I just absorbed a lot of the collective negative energy that is out there, like a sponge. I must be projecting that too somehow because my youngest daughter woke up in the middle of the night having a nightmare. I haven’t had the news on at all. We don’t watch it in my house. I have been reading it non-stop, along with posts from friends who are just in a very bad place mentally right now, understandably so. I know that I can’t avoid the triggers of those people, I have to be able to face them and not let it affect me, and that will show growth (that’s what I keep telling myself anyway). However, and this is a big however, as an empath you have to disconnect completely, for a little while, to clear out all of that negative energy, and then can go back and offer your help and emotional support. I don’t think avoiding people is the answer (I’m referring to communication, not physical distance). Those people are the way they are due to past traumas, so naturally, the sky is falling right now. But if you can center yourself, and try to be that calm light around them, maybe they will begin to feel some hope. I don’t know. I go round and round on this with myself constantly. I try to practice compassion and understanding with people that I would previously have avoided. I can’t only practice compassion with the people I get along with. It’s a test, to myself. I do feel like I’m growing. The introvert in me has just barely started talking to people in my hallway, this year, in the 8 years I’ve been working there. I had my misconceptions about them, and how they would see me. I decided this would be the year that I would just show myself, take it or leave it, but not practice avoidance (at least on my part).
Writing this is helping. I read an article talking about ways to clear the negative energy as an empath. I truly feel my youngest daughter is also an empath and I don’t want her to absorb any of it either. So, whatever you are doing, and if you’re able, spend some time outside and ground yourself in nature. Temporarily disconnect from social media if they aren’t helping your mental state. I know people who are glued to the news. Being glued to social media isn’t helping either, if negativity is all you are seeing. Regroup. Recenter. Breathe. We can get through this.